This day has not been marked on my calendar in red. The day to restart my progesterone shots. Many reasons I hate this shot...
1- The needle looks like it should be used to make a quilt rather than be used to inject an oil like substance into my bum.
2- My husband gets the pleasure to administer it.. Really.. something is so wrong about this one.
3-It leaves welts and feels like you've gotten goosed by 100 bees.
But you do what you have to do. We've been struggling with infertility for about a year. Unexplained, which is even more frustrating. It would be so nice to have the term "unexplained" in the teacher world to fall back on. Sorry Timmy can't read...it's really unexplained.
We've done a little bit of everything and it lead us to our first round of IVF in June. What a long process. I feel like I'm very tough and can handle most things. I think what killed me in the end when it didn't work was the span of time. Fertile people could of been pregnant three times to my failed one assisted.
I feel like I'm really open about the whole process. Maybe that's what also hurt me in the end. I was so honest with everyone when we were doing our IVF that people were anxiously awaiting our results. Everyone was super supportive but I felt so defeated. How could this seriously be happening? I feel like I've taken great care of myself and exercise daily. I have a healthy three year old that we had with little trouble. I've also taken up acupuncture to help the process along.
We have one..just one embryo frozen. We decided to go with this route because it's less money and less meds. The transfer is on Friday. So many things are going through my head. Will it work? Will I be heartbroken once again?
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